fools rush in

Once I’d entertained a few interesting scenarios that my imagination conjured up, I sat back with my book, listening to the stranger belt out random lyrics. And it made me smile. Continue reading

It came from the swamp

I once ate a live snail, picked straight from the swamp. We should stop talking about it because now I’ve got that terrible feeling that a snail lives inside me all over again… Continue reading

oh, just moving mountains

I do not know everything that I need to put in his lifetime backpack. Pay your bills on time. Live within your means. How to find an apartment. Be good to people. Treat girls with great tenderness and respect their strength. Never sell out. Honour yourself. Honour others. Faith. Prayers. Strength of self and character. Laundry/cooking/driving tips. I know those things. Continue reading

say what you mean to say

It struck me the other day as I was listening to some teenaged girls talk to one another, how none of them was actually saying what they meant to say. There was a lot of chatter. There were a lot of words. There were many bursts of laughter and squeals of delight or outrage. Continue reading

dance me to the end of love

He knows me well enough to know that in many cases, I can be tricked into doing something by the mere suggestion that I won’t/can’t do it. This reverse psychology works on me, he swears, because I am Dutch and the Dutch, he tells me, always rise to defend their self-appointed, oft-self-proclaimed awesomeness. While it is true that I have used the word “awesomeness’ with regard to something or another I’ve done, I have, in my defense, never once used the phrase “if you ain’t Dutch, you ain’t much”. Continue reading

open and exposed

There is a special brand of sadness and tender vulnerability in the heart of a mother whose child is hurt, and I sat there both sadly lonesome and fiercely protective as my nearly 6’2” Mancub curled up with his head on my shoulder and slept in the dim waiting room. Continue reading

all is well

In all of my days, and in all the days to come, the only thing that remains the same, the only truth I can cling to and bank on is the fact that every last thing that comes my way has been permitted by my Father in heaven. Continue reading

restoring the broken

And I thought again of my title: Director of Restoration. It means that I should be the first to live in such a way that healing comes from being in relationship with me; not pain. That I should be the first to choose to open my heart even in the midst of fear and pain, and that Ii should spread wide my arms to offer shelter for others, even if there are some who would nail those open arms to a cross. Continue reading